The obvious, enantiodromic sequel to Horizontal, I mean Sideways, this time, the tables have turned, and Jack is at rock bottom while Miles, mimicking the author’s real life, has just sold his novel which has become a famous movie, and now, he’s basking in the glow of wealth, fame, and wine glory as winemakers are loading him up on expensive complementary bottles in hopes getting into his next book, which I’m sure the author conceived as the sequel movie to Sideways, this time in Willamette which oddly enough, Miles had no idea existed before his fame. Miles resuscitates the diametrically opposed yet of the same coin, drunk super duo with Jack but brings along his stroke-victim mother in a wheelchair with an annoying dog and her caregiver, Joy, constantly referenced as the Asian or Filipina, like she comes from another planet.
Fiction is a funny thing, in that it both celebrates our pains as well as greatest desires and ambitions. The Big Bang Theory encapsulates this phenomenon by starting off with all four dorks being single, charming losers. Invariably, they live out every dork boy’s fantasy and all unbelievably get girlfriends, two well outside their league. It was this very bullshit fable of Hollywood that convinced me that I could date well outside my league in real life, wasting countless hours hitting on beautiful women. But as Vertical proves, a little fame and wealth can dramatically improve your chances with women, and if you think that’s shallow, imagine the women who have plastic surgery and come out looking substantially hotter than before and suddenly getting attention from guys, or a woman who dramatically loses weight. We’re all shallow, really, some of us just hide it better than others.
I disliked the Sideways Miles. He was way over-the-top Woody Allenesque, self-conscious, self-loathing, self-annihilating, and anti-social. He was even more annoying portrayed by Paul Giamatti. Self-loathing, existential narcissism can be entertaining if balanced with wit and a sense of irony, but Sideways Miles was just a total bore, a whiny, bitching, closed-minded, wuss of a human whose only saving grace besides a few eloquent overwrought verses and nerd vocabulary, was his ebullient, charismatic foil, Jack.
Funnily enough, She’s All That is playing on my TV which I keep on without watching. What would it be like to be a tall, good-looking dude? I sometimes wonder. You’d be a targeted breeder. Sure, you could sleep with a lot of women, but in reality, most of them would be expecting more than a meaningless shag, so you’d also be breaking a lot of hearts or at least disappointing and exploiting a lot of women. How would that make you feel? How would it make you feel, courting a woman, knowing full well that you had no intention whatsoever of making her a long-term girlfriend? You’d be a perpetual liar and exploiter. On the other side, you’d start out life with a lot of women trying to get pregnant with you. Perhaps you’d wind up getting a girl pregnant in high school, and if you were a jerk, you’d run away and not pay child support. If you were honest, you’d be stuck with child support or married. I think a lot of guys wish for this ideal that isn’t really ideal. In an ideal world, there would be gorgeous robots you could have sex with and just walk away, but in the real world, most women are looking for relationships not quickies. It’s often the women with low self-esteem who give away quickies, but now you’re spending most of your life with people with low self-esteem, and that can’t make you feel good about yourself.
On the other side, you wish for some gorgeous, tall woman, but in reality, imagine how all their lives, people tell them how pretty they are, and imagine how superficial it makes them, and how they surround themselves with other superficial, attractive people in this sort of shallow echo chamber of beauty. A person is their influences, so what kind of person is someone surrounded by shallow, attractive people all their lives? They’d certainly be nice trophies and perpetual eye candy until they age, but what kind of company would they be? God help you if they’re Instagram models and turn you into their photographer. “Hon, do I look good in this light? Hon, that’s a bad angle, can you try again? Hon, I’m almost at 100K followers, maybe you should take photography classes?”
Perhaps I’m just rationalizing sour grapes. My life has certainly not be encumbered by women trying to breed with me, which has provided me the liberty of countless nights of debauchery and the illusion of almost, perhaps, maybe hooking up with a cute woman I somehow convince to spend a few drinks with me. Certainly, it has freed up my time and money not raising a child, enough to enjoy traveling and reading. While the DNA programming inside me is robust enough to keep my mind open to breeding, philosophically speaking, is there any other reason to breed? And I’m not really defying my DNA, because in nature, countless animals are born and not suited to breed, and they nonetheless provide a valuable contribution to their family, social group, or species with any sort of productive work outside of breeding. In pursuit of naturalism, I always considered breeding important, and any lifestyle of society that discourages breeding is unnatural, i.e., Western Europe and Japan. However, there really is no such thing as unnatural. Some groups, animals, and societies simply become extinct, and that’s fine, and it doesn’t mean failure in the human sense of the word. Nature just goes on fine without them, but their time on Earth was not meaningless or a ‘failure’ but just a natural thing that happens to most species on this planet. Nature actually doesn’t even have a goal. We anthropomorphize nature and animals so much that we lose sight of what they really are. Nature does not strive to reward the fittest and most adaptable. If this is true, then most of nature is a failure, because most animals die prematurely, and most species to ever have existed are no longer here.
Sure, we are born with these powerful programming codes that convince us to breed, but there are many instances of animals being frustrated and not breeding, or their children dying and not passing on their DNA. It happens more than not. It doesn’t mean that their lives are meaningless and unnatural. We may desire to breed and have copious sex, and we may write novels about that, but there’s also much to be said about being losers and not having any sex. Sideways was popular to a lot of people, because they could identity with Miles and his frustration and suffering. There was release and eloquence in his drunkenness and pitiful ways. There was meaning in his meaningless life, value in his self-devaluation. We seemed to be overly concerned and caught up with our desires and fears so much that we think the fulfillment of our desires and complete triumph over all we fear is the only thing that counts when in fact, what counts more is the continued struggle with our desires and fears, the continued frustrations and laments, the questions and doubts.
Big business and the state beguile us with promises of solving all our personal and social problems in exchange for money and liberating us from our freedoms and responsibilities, but we fail to appreciate that we can deal with our personal and social problems without them, and in fact, they are the ones who are creating and amplifying most of our problems to sell us on their manufactured solutions. It’s like they want to make us believe that they can make us the most popular kid in high school, they can transform us and make everything perfect, when in fact, even the most popular kid in high school is not always happy and carefree, that there is also pressure and breeding traps they have to deal with. Having all eyes on you is not liberation but imprisonment as you try to live up to everyone’s expectations.
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While Sideways Miles wore on me with his incessant shitty attitude, Vertical Miles wears on me with his continued narcissism but in an exploitative and more shallow way. I think a lot of people think that people with big vocabularies are deep and thoughtful, but all it takes is a good memory and an SAT prep book. And even if you have read a few classics, it doesn’t mean you can think for yourself or even at all, in fact, I think a lot of classically read people are nothing but pretentious, bigoted, classist pricks. At the same time, a lot of people who think sad, existential, nihilistic people are intense and deep, often, they are just shallow. The dwelling in the deep pit of self-pity is what gives people the impression that they are deep. Fundamentally, you can’t keep being depressed and nihilistic if you continue to open yourself up to people and social experiences. You get feedback. People don’t want to be around morose, boring people. In fact, Jack constantly reminds Miles to perk up and avoid going dark when they’re about to engage women. In high school, I was one of those dark, depressed, philosophical kids, but I wasn’t deep; I was in fact, amazingly shallow. You gain depth by exposure to a diversity of people with different backgrounds, perspectives, and lives. Only then can you understand the complexities and differences as well as commonalities in humans. People who close them off to people aren’t deep at all, they just pretend to be.
Fundamentally, however, Vertical Miles reveals the shallowness and simplicity of Sideways Miles. Just like every sequel from Rocky II to Hungover 2 destroys the original, Vertical absolutely demolishes Sideways. In Sideways, you wonder, if Miles had become a successful author, perhaps he would be generous and transform his life, not drink so much, and actually do something interesting, something that reflects his true potential. Nope. As you read Vertical, you realize that, as he admits at one point, he just wrote to get laid, and now that he’s famous, all he wants to do is get laid. It’s actually shocking his lack of charm and wit as he asks women if they have boyfriends or if they’re married. What are you going to do if they say, ‘yes?’ Now, you’ve put them on the spot and made them think you think less of them for cheating on someone. Later on, he tells a woman she smells of seafood. The only way this guy’s getting laid is by Jack telling everyone he’s the author of Sideways, or should I say, Shameless. You get the feeling that Miles is just putting on a show for everyone to get laid, the whole over-the-top vocabulary, drinking, and ultimately his retreats to write and hopefully become famous.
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In one of the most perplexing parts of the book, and somewhat of a nod to all the drunk driving in Sideways, Miles is pulled over. What is perplexing is that Miles and Jack had both finished 3 bottles of wine between them that night, and Joy, his mother’s caregiver, only has a glass of wine. Why in hell didn’t they have Joy drive? And when the officer hides their keys, why in hell didn’t he just have Joy drive them? While the two books are filled with morally ambiguous tales, extramarital affairs, questionable nonconsensual blacked-out drunk sex, binging on alcohol without major repercussions, I have to hit pause on drunk driving. It reminds me of stupid movies where the characters drink several drinks and act completely sober with no red eyes, no lazy eyes, no slurred words, and completely focused looks. In fact, Paul Giamatti does a shitty job of acting drunk as do most actors. I swear, the one true litmus test of a great actor is to see if they can act like a drunk without actually being drunk. Anne Hathaway is a great actress, because she can actually pull off acting drunk if you watch her bit on Between Two Ferns. It makes young people think they can drink several or more drinks and be fine, when in fact, they turn into boorish, annoying, stupid, lame, slurring drunks and get miserable hangovers. In Hollywood, you go to Vegas and make thousands starting with a few hundred. In fiction land, you drive all over wine country drunk and never get a DUI. Give me a break! I was actually pulled over in Willamette when I drove around a car going 10 MPH under in the middle turning lane. Fortunately, the officer didn’t breathalyze me, because I had just come from a tasting room. I swear it was a setup, who drives 25 in a 35 and a cop just happened to be waiting down the block?
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I enjoyed Vertical much more than Horizontal, and not because it celebrates Miles’ celebrity and sexual vigor, but rather that it continues to ensnarl Miles in hardship and hijinks with a half-demented, childlike mother creating the necessary conflict and difficulties that give the book the necessary acidity to avoid being just a crowd-pleasing flaccid juice bomb of sex romps and drunken revelry. I actually didn’t enjoy all the sex scenes, envious and a bit shocked at just how slutty women can get when they’re involved with a man who’s famous. I’m not slamming women, because men get that way too with attractive women, but men don’t go around acting all pure and pristine. Whereas men weaponize sexuality to spread their genetic material around, women also weaponize their sexuality to achieve greater social status, better genetic material, and financial security. It shouldn’t come as a surprise, but from the point of view of getting rejected routinely, it’s always rather upsetting to see how easily some men get it, the same way women must feel when attractive, younger women get all the attention, and they wind up with the balding, short dude with questionable social graces.
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Two quick things. First, Miles is a Xanax junkie, and it’s no surprise that he is often visited by suicidal ideas. I took Xanax once, recreationally, and the next morning, I too was visited by rather bizarre suicidal ideas even though I had no reason to feel depressed about life. It makes you have to wonder whether certain drugs also give you homicidal thoughts, and whether many mass-shooting kids were on those drugs. Second, Miles’ mother, or perhaps the author’s too, is not one of those lovey-dovey types. I’ll never forget the time I saw my best friend hug and kiss his mother. I had no idea, people in the universe, did that sort of thing. I’ve read enough books to know that a cold, unloving mother creates sociopathic, cruel, mean men who have major intimacy issues with women and often objectify them and become misogynists, passive or overtly. They often bond strongly with men, because that is the only way they’ll ever get warmth in life, whereas their relationships with women are fleeting, sexual, and oscillating between emotional smothering and emotional detachment. Invariably, if they do hook up with women, they unconsciously seek out women similar to their mothers, openly fake and caring, and later mean, abusive, and emotionally detached. It’s like two fucked up dudes who invariably find each other in a bar to get into a fight; two fucked up people also invariably find each other in a bar for a one-night stand. If you want to know what a relationship will be like with a dude, just ask him about his mother and how his mother treated him. That’s exactly how he’ll wind up treating you.
The ending is somewhat of an interesting twist. [Spoiler alert]. The entire book, Miles comes across as an exploitative, miserable, shallow jerk, and driving his mother across country is not so much an act of charity as it is transferring the responsibility of taking care of his mother to his aunt and soothing his guilt over his mother’s misery at her nursing home. Because of this, I’m not entirely convinced of the innocence in the ending. Miles is a Xanax druggie with insomnia and under high stress and anxiety, it is quite possible, he misinterpreted his mother’s real wish in the end. At no point in time, does he ask his mother if she wants to die, it’s just implied. He is in no condition to make that decision with all the booze and drugs he’s on, and although he quits drinking for a bit in the end, he’s suffering withdrawal. It’s quite possible, in his drug-addled, stressed mind, he projects on to his mother who is now incapable of fully expressing herself verbally. At the same time, his mother is in no condition to make a decision either, having suffered a stroke and often being in a state of confusion. It is quite possible that what you witness in the ending is simple and clear homicide which would take a huge burden financially and emotionally off Miles. I enjoyed this book a lot more than Sideways, and the huge 400 pages went by pretty quickly, but this moral paradox at the end is like tasting something rotten and bitter in the aftertaste of a wine that makes you wonder if it went bad. There was a moment when his mother died, and Miles considered not calling 911 immediately, but he did, and they resuscitated her, and you can only wonder if they weighed on his mind as he watches his mother’s condition deteriorate. Despite how awful her condition deteriorated, the decision to end her life, which I fully believe we have a right to do, should have been clearly expressed by her in no uncertain terms. Someone with limited mental capacity crying, “I want to go home” may actually be thinking they want to go back to their childhood home and not to some heaven place where all their loved ones are.
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The afterward by the publisher is annoying and unnecessary, but it does include a little insight into the third Sideways book which I looked up and refuse to read based on the negative reviews. Apparently, Miles gets a trip to Chile and reunites with Laura, the one-night-stand from Willamette. I don’t ever see Miles managing a mature relationship with another woman, ever. The reviews indicate that the book is pretty much a Sideways rehashing minus Jack creating balance, so it becomes even more self-indulgent Miles’ mental notes which are nothing but shallow and dark. What I do see Miles doing is squeezing every last drop out of his Sideways fame while unashamedly promoting wine labels for cash in all his future books. The fact that the author would continue to write sequels is indicative that the Sideways Miles was never a genuine, honest, good person trapped in a miserable, anxiety-prone life finding relief and respite in grapes, but rather just a whiny, shallow dude who couldn’t manage relationships with women and just turns into an exploiter of not just women but Sideways fans. His book titles are really just the different ways he can screw you.
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